In a hidden place i visit in secrecy i see us and the way it used to be, i cry inside when i see us when I remember the love that was so perfect, now in despair the last words you spoke always fresh on my mind thought that we would be together till the end of time, you loved me once then let me go could never express how that hurt me, you said before our love is forever, time and distance took its toll, our relationship just could not grow It died in the dark never knowing light, I tried and tried I put up a fight, a sea of tears I cried over many nights but nothing in the world could ever make it right, time marched on and so did we. you still stayed on my mind constantly my search to find you pertinacious like the perfect poem lost in the pages, It came to the day that I said "I Do" Promised myself in my next life it would be with you, I tried to fix it all over and over again before life foreclosed on you and showed me him, I hear you’re living your life and you are doing fine, so I go about my best to live mine wonder if you ever think of me, If you think how things could have been or used to be, If may be there is still a place where our hearts meet again, where first true love finds no end.

Moving On? (Yeah ... Right!)

I tell myself that I’ve moved but I haven't been the same since you've gone i cry myself to sleep at night I grab your memory and hold on tight I still miss you with every breath I still believe that you'll come back I can still smell your sweet perfume and your arms still feel like home I can't help but love you no matter how I try I tell myself I’m moving on But I can't i still keep your pictures Hung up on my wall And I keep all the presents And the memories of previous years I tell myself you still love me believing that one day you will but I’m just living a lie so I continue to cry

Tears fall for you tonight as I morn your memory I've cried so long and I’ve cried so hard that can barely breathe I don't know myself without you And I don't like what I’ve become I have no feeling left inside I always feel so numb, Tears fall for you tonight, as this gun goes to my head I can't take it all I can't take the pain It should have been me instead, Tears fall for you tonight, As I drink this poison down then it will be done It will all be over I can finally get away From the sorrow all around, Tears fall for you tonight, But even when I’m gone I'll be forever crying tears falling for my forgotten love

Like precious footprints on sandy beach

The tide removes all, far from any reach
your footprints fade away in the sand

Your memory will also, as I understand

Footprints gone, scattered across oceans

Washed away as our marriage devotions

Footprints that leave me a painful regret

Wishing we’d never been, nor had we met.

Why...?

Why do I love you with all my heart? Why did I fall for you from the start?
Why do you cause me so much pain? Why do you stick to my heart like a stain?
Why couldn't I see you weren't gonna stay? Why did I believe you were gonna take the pain away?
Why did you play my heart like a game? Why couldn't you ever feel the same?
Why do I sit in my room all alone?Why do I pray you would call me again?
Why did you end it after our four year? Why didn't it bother you when you made my eyes tear?
Why cant I stop thinking of you,Why can't I say goodbye Why do I still get jealous when I see you with another guy?
Why can't I forget about you and put you in the past?Why does a part of me still believe that me and you were made to last?

A Dream

When the sun has gone away then the beautiful night is singing on the way I am waiting for the stars to shine again I am waiting for the cool breeze to touch my soul again I am waiting for my love to come again I am waiting for my love to hold me again I am waiting for my love to hug me again I am waiting for my love to feel her warmth in my arms again I am waiting for my love to hear her wondrous laughter again All I need as long as she live, I will live on to her No matter how is the future, I will be loving her for ever. I am waiting for my love Jade again and again.

Consequence

Forever I will pay the consequence of driving us apart its not what I intended from the bottom of my heart I wanted, needed and loved you but the pressure that I gave was far too great and I'm sorry was only hoping our love to save.I accept my fault in doing the one thing I should not have done pushing you away while trying to become one I was wrong and I am sorry I just feel the need to share I am not perfect nor will ever be but always know I CARE As long as I hold this dream deep within my heart I know that in my life you will always be a part Of each moment, of each day my memories are of you and praying you can also remember the love I gave to you The consequence is I have lost you Forever and ever more but know while life goes on you are the one I will always adore you my lost love